my little infinities

Jan 18, 2025

My high school graduation cap

On my high school graduation cap, I referenced a quote from "The Fault in Our Stars" by John Green. In the book, the main character Hazel gives a eulogy to her dying lover Augustus:

"There are infinite numbers between 0 and 1. There's .1 and .12 and .112 and infinite collection of others. Some infinities are bigger than other infinities. There are days, many of them, when I resent the size of my unbounded set. But, Gus, my love, I cannot tell you how thankful I am for our little infinity. You gave me a forever within the numbered days, and I'm grateful."

I might be a sucker for tragic love stories, but I think there's a lot of truth to this. Every single day, we are given a new set of infinite possibilities: some are big like landing your dream job, others are small like a precious 5-second embrace with your long-distance boyfriend before he leaves for 2 weeks (🥲).

Either way, we can choose to treat every experience as our own "little infinity". I don't really care how long I live, as long as I die realizing I was living in the present, appreciating every precious moment I have on this spinning rock.

So here's a list of all my small infinites. The list will be constantly updated as I experience new things. Call it a living document of my life if you will!

the list

  • [11/23/24] really good tasting cream udon from a hole-in-the-wall restaurant!
  • [11/28/24] watching pride and prejudice (comfort film) while i'm sick
  • [12/29/25] building a mini house with my boyfriend for 6 hours
  • [01/01/25] This wedding speech (also a nod to improbable odds and fate)
  • [01/18/25] grandma's cooking after a quarter away from home.
  • [01/25/25] on the pier watching the gentle, Van Gogh-esque ripples of street lights on the water
  • [01/26/25] Rain pelting on the window outside in our cozy airbnb @ Catalina
  • [01/26/25] Befriending a chubby ginger cat near a cottage in Catalina
  • [02/01/25] Free parfaits and croissants at ucsd!
  • [02/08/25] saturday mornings at the cafe on your own - its so pretty this morning!
  • [02/09/25] late night drives alone in the car listening to keshi